I don’t know why, I let this little statement upset me so much, but it did. Today at work, I was running a little behind schedule with all the things that I needed to have completed before I left at 3. (It was sort of busy today.) So I asked one of my coworkers, if it was cool that I left at three and one of them can finish my tasks. He just said, “Suuureee…” So I just finished up the thing I was doing and he suddenly says, “Yeah, when things are left half done, we usually say, “Oh, you are pulling a Ryan.” I asked him, who said that, and he just shrugged and said everyone and walked off laughing.

I don’t usually get so upset over this, but I did. I clocked out at 3, like I’m suppose too, and finished all the tasks that was left to do while sobbing. No one said anything and they just let me be. I don’t know why, it hurt so much, but it really did. I work 30-40 hours a week and only have two days off. And during those two days, I have school from 6am to 7pm. I seriously work my ass off. I never go out, I never do bad things, I do what I’m suppose too. It’s just the fact that this asshole is saying I’m fuckin’ lazy and don’t work hard really upset me. And to go and say, that I don’t do my best? It’s fucked up.

I hate feeling like I’m not good enough. I hate feeling like I am not doing what I am expected. Like what more do you fuckin’ want from me? I know he is just some prick, but it really did hurt. I really do work the best I can. I really do try my hardest. I just don’t know why it sucks to hear that I’m not.

Sorry to my followers if this comes off as me complaining or being a baby, I usually don’t post things like this. But I needed to vent and just let it all out.